alter-ego.

2007-08-10T09:33:00.001-07:00

OKAY THIS WEEK HAS BEEN CRAZY. HAHAHAHAHA.

2007-08-05T05:02:00.000-07:00

amg the stress is mounting. lol life gets so freaking annoying when your day literally becomes a periodic cycle. WOW wake up. walk to coffee bean. take out book. stone for 15 mins. try to study. manage to get on a roll. do sme qs. stop. jome. come back. stone. do a bit. then stone. then jome.stone. then go home. eat. go on the com.sleep. wake up AND IT ALL HAPPENS AGAIN. very very mundane.
ANYWAY ON A MORE EXCITING NOTE. zouk last night was freaking fun. lol i wasnt even supposed to go at first and the head count was like 1. and then when it was time we had a pretty decent group hahahaa and wasnt it fun as hell? oh yeah. It was a good destress outing PLUS THIS WEEKEND IS LIKE BAYBEATS. this years baybeats sucks some bomb la. i go all the way to esplanade to watch some good performances and i get punk dudes screaming. NOT COOL. lol it was so bad i left like damn early.
hmmmmmmmmmmm today i did nothing but 10 physics mcqs ahahahaha. im so dead.

2007-07-27T09:38:00.000-07:00

today was quite fun and actually pretty productive! i think im starting to be on fire again. my on fire status has been gone for quite long BUT NOW IM FEELING THE HEAT PEOPLE. im feeling the fire. the other day at econs tuition everyone saw glimpses of it. but as of now i confirm that the undying flame of STUDY TILL YOU DROP has returned. and i sure hope this time for good!
okay enough about my fire. THE FIRE!!!! BRRRRRRR. the fire..

2007-07-26T07:32:00.001-07:00

a walk to remember. haha da shit.

2007-07-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

amg i just listened to rusty nail by X japan. i honestly think theyre the fucking best band in the world. ITS WEJOWQDJSLOJOQMSQ. i have no words to describe toshis voice cutting thru the standard yoshiki drum beat and hides guit riffs. heavenly!
okay anyway! im living life to the fullest now. like late july resolution. haha alotalot of things up this week. lit week is consuming me. altho i dont take lit. wth right i know. but its kinda fun and i get to PERFORM AGAIN hahaha. damn im itching like mad la. okay anyway these thgs will not distract me frm my study globe. right now im only building it. its not complete yet. hahaha so i really cant abandon it. it should be done by august AND THEN ILL GET A FOR PHYSICS! WOOHOOX!ok questionable.
whoa today math tuition i kena stunned sia so many times lol. need to buck up! kenny lau NOW THAT I KNOW THAT U AND "GANG" read this blog haha im so gna get A for maths lafor prelims. and then ill go on to get A for physics. cos im gna FOCUS on these 2 subjects for prelims heehee.
SOSOSOSO yes today went to watch CREEGATE finals. was pretty okay but after a while it just got like 0_0. HOW LONG MRE. i guess its a patient mans game but wth ITS TOO TIRING TO WATCH. anyway great job naanda you da man on the CEYLON CREEGATE TURF.
okok some mre yes STELLASTORY RECORDINGS cming up soon! quiiite exciting if u ask me. and random info. toshi looks damn uncle nowadays. its terrible.

SAY NO TO BEING A SLAVE OF PREOCCUPATION. ok no must study.

2007-07-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

For this time only should I listen to myself? or would that only make it worse. right now, no idea. but i have to fix it up and make up my mind like now. because any more time on this would only make it worse.

OR

I could let it all go and ride the waves. what waves? yeah true.
think.

2007-07-16T09:25:00.001-07:00

AMG I DID IT HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
YAY YAY YAY YAY!

Vanishing Vision

2007-07-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

x japan is reforming OH YEAH!!!! i just cant get enough of toshi man. AND TODAY KENNY NENG SAID TOSHI FREAKING SUCKS. dude not cool man. Kenny lau and elijahxzxz wont be happy to hear that hahaha. and i leave you with KURENAI!

"I could not to look back,
you'd gone away from meI felt my heartache,
I was afraid of following you
when I was looking the shadows of the wall
I started running into the night to find the truth in me"

I can't promise you tomorrow.

2007-07-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was just emo day man lol. anyway im happy i got half the things ive bottled up for a long time out. the other half will explode out soon but i can still take it heehee. and so CTS RESULTS HAUNT ME NOW um i mean AGAIN. I think ive come to a conclusion that im quite a consistent student. 4 S's and an E. i mean im equally good at all my subjects hahaa oh yeah who am kidding lol. im quite glad i actually passed my physics this time round _{with a smashing 37%, eh sub pass= pass okay. now that is record breaking since ive finally crossed the 35% mark. Well from now i guess ive gotta just work doubly as hard for prelims and then doubly the doubly as hard for As and i think i can find myself a spot in some uni.

hahaha its all mugging these days and no stella BUT THERES B BALL OH YEAH. okay im not gna say anythg abt B BALL cos ppl will just laugh at me(:.haiya time to mug la butt im gna leave the lyrics of this bon jovi song behind and READ IT cos hes a freaking good lyricist and they mean alot.

This Aint a Love Song-Bon Jovi

I should have seen it coming when the roses died
I should have seen the end Of Summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good-bye

Baby, ain't it funny How we never ever learn to fall
You're really on your knees
You think you're standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls
Yeah, I played that fool for you

I cried and I cried There were nights that I died for you, baby
I tried and I tried To deny that your love drove me crazy
If the love that I got for you's gone
If the river I cried ain't that long
Then I'm wrong, yes, I'm wrong
This ain't a love song

I thought you and me would stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime
But we were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind
Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
Clowns wore smiles that wouldn't fade
Baby, you and I we were renegades
Well, some things never change

It made me so mad 'Cause I wanted it bad for us, baby
Now, it's so sad that whatever we had Ain't worth saving
If the pain that I'm feeling so strong
Is the reason I'm holding on Then I'm wrong,
well I'm wrong This ain't a love song...}

landslide.

2006-11-06T06:33:00.000-08:00

hey people! these are the lyrics to my new song called wings of faith =))!

Wings of faith

You know i'm standing on the rooftop
searching through the amber sky
These questions, they pull me in like quiksand
God please give me some answers;

Answers, it seems to be the hardest thing to find these days
some answers, some words of hope and wisdom in between.

I know i've been learning how to fly with both my wings clipped of from my side.
I know that my plunge from here would solve nothing, escape this fear inside.

And now i see images of kelly and it hurts.
I see my baby girl she's crawling
growing into a fine young rose.

And i can't bear to edge any closer to my end,
destiny whispers,
shouts out loud urging me to jump and fly to another world!

snow globes.

2006-11-05T08:53:00.000-08:00

Which Guitar Player Are You?created by sahrenos

Your Results:SlashYou are Slash! You are formerly of Guns N' Roses, one of the greatest bands ever to graze the earth. Currently you are with Velvet Revolver, and you love Jack Daniels and cigarettes. You are one of the most well known guitarists, and a master blues-rock player. You also have a hot supermodel wife.

I KNEW IT!!!! hahaha slash is in me.

geometry.

2006-11-01T03:19:00.001-08:00

There are close to 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion different personalities. 6 billion different faces. 6 billion different hearts. sometimes it just makes you wonder how you know when you think you've found the one? It's like finding the colour gold in your rainbow. Its obviously not there.=psst! if you dont know this you're just plain stupid!=
But if you believe and wait long enough, stare long enough and hope long enough for it to appear, then it will. its a game of faith. If you decide to have some faith in a power greater than you then he would give you everything you need.

Every experience in life happens for a reason. and you are given the luxury of a choice to choose between moaning and groaning over what has happenned OR you could take it as a lesson learnt. it happened because it had to and theres nothing you or I could do about it. Sometimes its just best to let go and let someone else take control. Letting go is the last thing any of us would do. the human was built as such. but sometimes you just have to because theres something else that no man can control, the pain in the ass called destiny. dont get me wrong YOU make the choices that lead you to your destiny but your destiny is already fixed. okay you must be confused. its like you will reach where you have to at the end of your lifetime but which route you take is YOUR choice.
take the example of a semi circle.
take the semi circle as the blueprint of your destiny and label the ends of it points A and B. your life, or your destiny has bounded you to only this much in this lifetime. in other words you have been sent here to travel from point A to B afterwhich you die and go back to where your soul belongs. if you make the right choices in life, if you live by the principles and morals of a good human being you will travel across the diameter of the semi circle which is a safe and clear path. BUT if you make the wrong decisions in life then you would have to travel across the circumference of the semi circle where its unsafe and treacherous. sometimes people die before even reaching their point B, leaving what destiny has had in stored for them behind. then they are reborn again to complete the same task which puts their souls in unrest for another lifetime.
Here on, I would like to look back at the concept of letting go again. sometimes change or getting something you dont expect disappoint people but then friends think again if this is what destiny has in stored for you then what can one do about it? virtually nothing.
take it from there and make the right decisions. make the choices you have to with faith, love and devotion so that you can live a brighter life with what your own unique and different destinies have blessed you with.

lines.

2006-10-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

Most of the times, you know that life has so much more to it than it seems to hold. Then again, questions from all dimensions arise throwing this enitity of life under a certain light that portrays it to be nothing but a torture, a test, a bottomless pit.
However, as this journey of life continues every being begins realise that this place that we seem to be living in is not where we belong. Instead we have been placed here by a higher power so that we learn lessons that could strengthen our souls, making the only immortal segment of us more pure, justifiably eternal.
The beginning or end of life is not of greatest importance but the journey, the experinces we go through, the lessons we learn and the people we love is actually the fibre of life.
and then we meet love.
love.
the only form of energy that we have been blessed with, that we can use to fill voids of sorts and mend even collateral damage done to our soul. When life starts to seem meaningless to you, always remember that its not over. that is not it. theres always a way out in the face of love.and when you find it you will realise that like your soul you will live forever.

ray

2006-10-03T11:25:00.000-07:00

Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you. Sometimes they fall short.
Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard. if you look close enough, you find hope..in the words of children and the bars of a song or in the eyes of someone you love. and if you're lucky and i mean the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love, decides to love you back.

The Lighthouse

2006-03-13T21:00:00.000-08:00

He says:
Erected afar, on a land believed;
To exist was a lighthouse, hope don't leave.
The voyage of love, was met by seas
Treacherous, formidable, impossible to reach.
One ray of light, he prayed to see;
to tear his night with luminous belief.
To him that ray it never came,
He gazed at stars deciphering her name.

She says:
The melody of waves, slapping the rocks
On which stood the lighthouse, attached her thoughts.
Confused in love, a dilemma within;
If the light she'd shine, a love would spring.
Retreat in thoughts, it made her think
If the torch she beared reflected her need.
And there she stood, left unaware
that before her stood the key to hearts being shared.